Hi there :)


October 23rd
Ok... so I've been asked out by this guy I REALLY REALLY like. Like, REALLLY!!!!!!!!!!
Mhm, I'm just afraid he'll forget about me or something, because he said we'll meet next week because he has like tons of work to do! I don't like to wait, because I fill my head with all this stupid ideas, but the REAL problem is... I'm afraid he'll stand me up just like the other guy..
I'm not sure what I should do until he calls me (next week maybe.. I don't know when or if he'll call me..!)
But,  I think I should just take it a  step at a time, and enjoy the fact that the guy I like, has asked me out... Because that must mean he likes me or something.. right??

October 27th


I've seen HIM 2 times this week, I know it doesn't sound like it's a LOT, but believe me, IT IS. I haven't seen him since summer and all of the sudden I started meeting him...! Some say it's the POWER of my MIND.  An I'm not sure if I believe THAT, but it is true that I have "decided" I wanted to see him and BOOM, I saw him, and we had a little chit-chat.


What have I learnt this week? I'm not sure haha.  I just have this PEACE within me.
I saw yesterday the guy that stood me up, I even hugged him when I saw him and said hello, he was kinda confused. But I was ok with the situation, I thought I would be sooo angry when I saw him again, but NO. I just didn't care... Of course I would NEVER ever even think about going out with him ever ever again! But I wasn't mad, or upset, or sad... or anything. It felt good.


On the other hand, I don't want to loose hope in guys or love, but I'm starting to take things more calmly. It might work, plus it feels good. I finally understood that thing really DO happen when they should and because they should, so their is REALLY no use in rushing anything.


IT FEELS GOOD.


Of course, I still have that little BUG in my head saying "Go make something happen, you LIKE him! DO something", but I want HIM to be the one to do something for a change, and then again things will happen when they should. Meanwhile I'll keep myself open for what it will come :)


And I'll listen to this playlist:

If This Was A Movie Taylor Swift

You got me                       Colbie Caillat

Today Was A Fairytale       Taylor Swift

Sparks Fly                          Taylor Swift

Jump Then Fall                    Taylor Swift

Fallin' For You                  Colbie Caillat

Superstar                          Taylor Swift

One In This World            Haylie Duff

Love Story                       Taylor Swift

Your Anything                   Taylor Swift

You Belong With Me        Taylor Swift

Fearless                            Taylor Swift

What if                            Colbie Caillat

Bubbly                            Colbie Caillat

Singled Out                     A*Teens

Daydream                      Miranda Cosgrove

Half of My Heart           John Mayer

Hip To My Heart      The Band Perry

Untouchable                Taylor Swift

Things I'll Never Say    Avril Lavigne

I'm obsessed with weddings.

Yes, I am, and I don't like it. It's not like I hate them, or that I never want to get married. It's the exact opposite actually. 

The reason? My best friend is getting married. I'm the MAID OF HONOR. Needless to say... I have no IDEA who I should bring to her wedding. Hahaha. There are many guys that have asked me out the last month. Yesterday 3 guys. Needless to say, I declined all their invitations. WHY? I don't know, I just don't get all EXCITED about going out with them. I guess I do like them, as friends but that's it. I don't feel anything for them, and I know... You DON'T  have to feel anything for them... You just NEED to get to know them, better and then perhaps...fall in love, or something?

I know them, I see them everyday in class... But, that's about it, I like them as persons, I have so much fun with them, but... I guess I'm looking for something different. (That's important you NEED to know what you want, because if you don't... then how are you going to get it? AND, probably what you want or look for in a guy... shouldn't be things like "Oh... that he likes the same things I do!", because that depends on him, he should like what he wants... I think, what you should look for in a guy are things like "Is he hard working, is he a good person,  is he reliable, do we have fun together?"... things like that )

I suggest you go out with many guys as you can! That way you'll get a good taste of what's out there, but... in the other hand.. why go out with someone you don't really want to go out with? Sure, you might fall in love... but I think you'll ONLY fall in love if you give them a chance, and you'll only give them a chance if you have a good hunch  about them ;)

Well i have a good hunch about someone, and yes... I have my insecurities... Yes, I'm SCARED it might not work.. (he HAS to call me first so we'll arrange our "date"... or something like that). But same as you... I SHOULDN'T  think about the future... or what might go wrong, or right.  The only thing to do is enjoy the RIGHT NOW. And right now I'm getting inspired to right this blog, and that's about it :)*

So just breath in... and breath out.. forget about where you might or might no go with the guy... and enjoy life as it comes, when it comes.

And don't you ever forget to love yourself, and have time for yourself and make yourself look pretty for YOU and not only for him... trust me if you start paying more attention to YOU... he'll be more attracted to you... Just don't get too caught up in yourself, that is in NO WAY attractive ;) Just like yourself, take care of yourself, make time for yourself and don't be all about him.

Anyway this is my wedding dress...

(I just need to get the groom... no biggie)

http://www.thevintageweddingdresscompany.com/collections/decades/1940s