Guys.

What about them? 

I have no idea.

They are SO complicated.

One second they want to be with you, and the very next... it's over.

They are like... "Oh, let's go out!... Let's talk about it in the week"... GIRLS, if the guy says something like that... say "Sure..." and DON'T believe him. They have this stupid tendency to run. Hello, guys?  MAN UP!

DON'T take them too seriously. And DON'T say yes to any guy, I mean sure.. go out and see the world, meet guys have fun. But don't settle for LESS. EVER.

I also think, we... or at least I should  not take guys too seriously, for real. They're fun, sure... But is that enough?? I think that even though everyone says that Disney ruined our lives, because it gave us unrealistic standard about what love should be... I think it's OK to dream about a true love, not lust.

I also believe that most of... or maybe all of my "heartbreaks" (I use commas, because I don't think I've ever been heartbroken... just disappointed) are due to my silly head... the one that imagines the perfect scenario, which by the way is SO perfect, it never happens. And that's why I end up sad. 

Confused about love??? HA! me too.

How do you know if you found HIM? They say you just... feel it. Well, I made myself believe I felt IT so many times, I don't really feel anything now. Not something different at least.

Like Micheal B. says... "I guess the half's timing, and the other half's luck"

I wish you the very very very best of luck and I hope you'll find your perfect match... maybe not soon, but in time :)

Hi there :)


October 23rd
Ok... so I've been asked out by this guy I REALLY REALLY like. Like, REALLLY!!!!!!!!!!
Mhm, I'm just afraid he'll forget about me or something, because he said we'll meet next week because he has like tons of work to do! I don't like to wait, because I fill my head with all this stupid ideas, but the REAL problem is... I'm afraid he'll stand me up just like the other guy..
I'm not sure what I should do until he calls me (next week maybe.. I don't know when or if he'll call me..!)
But,  I think I should just take it a  step at a time, and enjoy the fact that the guy I like, has asked me out... Because that must mean he likes me or something.. right??

October 27th


I've seen HIM 2 times this week, I know it doesn't sound like it's a LOT, but believe me, IT IS. I haven't seen him since summer and all of the sudden I started meeting him...! Some say it's the POWER of my MIND.  An I'm not sure if I believe THAT, but it is true that I have "decided" I wanted to see him and BOOM, I saw him, and we had a little chit-chat.


What have I learnt this week? I'm not sure haha.  I just have this PEACE within me.
I saw yesterday the guy that stood me up, I even hugged him when I saw him and said hello, he was kinda confused. But I was ok with the situation, I thought I would be sooo angry when I saw him again, but NO. I just didn't care... Of course I would NEVER ever even think about going out with him ever ever again! But I wasn't mad, or upset, or sad... or anything. It felt good.


On the other hand, I don't want to loose hope in guys or love, but I'm starting to take things more calmly. It might work, plus it feels good. I finally understood that thing really DO happen when they should and because they should, so their is REALLY no use in rushing anything.


IT FEELS GOOD.


Of course, I still have that little BUG in my head saying "Go make something happen, you LIKE him! DO something", but I want HIM to be the one to do something for a change, and then again things will happen when they should. Meanwhile I'll keep myself open for what it will come :)


And I'll listen to this playlist:

If This Was A Movie Taylor Swift

You got me                       Colbie Caillat

Today Was A Fairytale       Taylor Swift

Sparks Fly                          Taylor Swift

Jump Then Fall                    Taylor Swift

Fallin' For You                  Colbie Caillat

Superstar                          Taylor Swift

One In This World            Haylie Duff

Love Story                       Taylor Swift

Your Anything                   Taylor Swift

You Belong With Me        Taylor Swift

Fearless                            Taylor Swift

What if                            Colbie Caillat

Bubbly                            Colbie Caillat

Singled Out                     A*Teens

Daydream                      Miranda Cosgrove

Half of My Heart           John Mayer

Hip To My Heart      The Band Perry

Untouchable                Taylor Swift

Things I'll Never Say    Avril Lavigne

Things I've learnt this week (YES, only this week...)

1. I have mastered the art of BEING asked out! Going out? Not so much, but hey it's got to mean something right? I mean,  many guys flirt with me... sadly some have girlfriends and I don't like that. But still, I've been asked to go out a LOT lately... But sometimes I DON'T want to go out with them, and others.. when I ACTUALLY want to go out, something happens and we just can't seem to be able to go OUT!
2. Guys lie. I don't now if it is on purpose, but they do... or they SIMPLY forget we where supposed to meet.
3. Guys LOVE smiley and flirty girls!!! Are you scared... to walk to a guy and say "HI"? You shouldn't!! They love it when you do a little chit-chat with them ;) GO FOR IT! 
4. Don't take the lead!...  I mean.. don't ask him out LET him do all the HARD work! That doesn't mean you shouldn't suggest him he should do all the work.. Because you TOTALLY should!! You know... go talk to him, touch him ;)... make him like you and WAIT. He'll ask you out :)
5. Don't loose hope, just enjoy the moment. He'll come... I don't know when but he's gotta!
6. Don't make yourself feel bad, just DON'T. Don't start daydreaming about EVERYTHING that could go wrong! Think about the good things that HAVE happened. 
7. ENJOY ENJOY ENJOY! FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT! Be bold, be you!!!* HAVE FUN.
8. Don't take guys too seriously, because if you do you might end up hurt. And it will be your fault, because you let them get to you.
9. I have punished me for sooo long because I don't have a boyfriend. I didn't let myself enjoy each time a  guy asked me out or looked at me or winked an eye. Because I thought it wasn't for real, because I HAD to  have made that up!... I didn't let myself dance to a love song, because I thought I would be disappointed. 
10. I think I'll give myself a chance to enjoy, not just flirting, but also believing that THIS guy that gives me butterflies when I'm near him, actually likes me back, and something GOOD might happen.
11. I HAVEN'T FELT BUTTERFLIES FOR SOMEONE IN A LONG TIME.
12. I am HAPPY. I am pretty, and I like myself. And I think it shows.
13. I'm going to take a chance, and I wont say and repeat what I always say.... "It's ok, if nothing happens between you two, you'll be alright. It won't kill you, it's NOT the end of the world". Well I know THAT, so I don't need to repeat that to myself, I'm just going to JUMP.
14. To do that Jump, I need confidence. So lets say, that because he was with me the whole night, he kinda likes me. So I'll think we have a shot. WHY NOT?!